Friday, July 11, 2014

7 Years Strong

My Dear Ben -
7 years have flown by, but I'm not surprised. Since our early dating days we've always enjoyed each others company. From Boardwalk dates, downtown Santa Cruz shenanigans, renegade parties, drive in movies and festies to moving into our first place together, pregnancy, a baby, another move, navigating preschool and still going to festies. We never stop. I love our life. Our cozy home filled with so much love. I smile ear to ear just thinking about it.

Friday, January 3, 2014

Trying Again

Hello Internet Diary
It's been a long time, too long. What is it about a New Year that makes us want to be better? Is it the idea that this year might be the year that we do everything we want and more, a clean slate. Ah CLEAN slate. I think the word clean has a lot to do with it. When I close my eyes and think of a clean slate I can hear myself just breath a sigh of relief. As if all those failed attempts of last year didn't happen.

Anyway, here we are at the beginning of a new year, to me a new year feels like diving into a cold pool. I can feel the coolness wash over me and wash away the past year. The last days of December always seem to drag their feet. Don't get me wrong the last days of December I love! Time off to spend however I please, but the tugging of the new year is there like the uncertainty of a budding romance.

Of course with a new year comes a million of resolutions. Ways to better myself physically, spiritually, intellectually, etc. And of course with every new year's resolution comes the memories of failed resolutions and how this year will be 'my year'.

So for those of you that have read this far here is my #1 resolution. There are others but this one is the most important one to me:
1. Spend more time NOT working
   This is tough since I have lots of work and I love the work that I do. However, with a family you just need to spend time with the family, or you miss everything and feel out of touch. Sometimes I look at B interacting with S and I feel like that should be me. That I don't do enough. And with those feelings I tend to get down on myself. I know that I do as much as I can but S is almost 4 and I feel like time with her is slipping away from me. I cherish those few moments that I do have with her and I'm especially enjoying her new habit of crawling into bed with me and B at 4 AM. B's not much of a fan so we need to find a solution to this habit I love.
I've read many things about the most effective way to make resolutions and goals, the #1 thing they all say is to be concise. So in greater detail my first resolution is really to set boundaries for myself with work and home life. Ideally I would like to just shut down at 6PM until the next day and use those 2  hours to spend with family time S and B only, exclusively and disconnect completely. No phone, no internet.

What is your #1 resolution/goal for 2014?
Until next time!